so out of nowhere i pretty much
downloaded legally obtained all the songs off of WYIN, and i also happened to be - completely independent of the WYIN downloading legal obtaining - searching for "heatherbat" on google and found all these old posts to amp.
now, i want to say that i'm shitfaced right now so yeah, i'm prone to a lot of sappy "omgz i love you guyses" stuff. that in mind...
omgz, i love you guyses. i miss amp, and how safe and nice it was. i mean, back when it was going, i would have, without question, taken a bullet for ANY of you on there. except maybe n*ncyben. ::shudder::
it makes me kind of sad. amp died and we're not all OMGTHISCLOSE anymore. which i guess is expected to happen. we're all growing up and doing our own things now. i'm getting married on march 25th to who i think is my muffin. i've loved him since the second i laid eyes on him, and every new day is just reaffirmation of how right he is for me. i'm happy and getting "old" - i never leave the house, i have no drama. i don't do drugs, i rarely drink. life is good. life is boring. life is good and boring. i wouldn't trade my happy life in for any of the drama i was having with brian, or anniechrist. but god, i miss all of you guys. so much. i miss amp, and all the weird rules we had. i still can see amp in my head. and the bar, with our barwench. back when i had a modified "oi" haircut and hung signs off of my bangs. and BUB and BUAR and all the other BU's we had. and the LIP and the sheepie is god fan club and the one bitch army and the one bitch armybot and the speech and the shag chambers and #666 and #23 and sheepie and EVERYTHING. i miss it, and it makes me kind of sad that we can't have it back.
babies, i went and got old on you all. i turned into a grownup.
i miss you all a lot anyways.